Dear baby boy,
I am so ready to meet you. But then again, I can wait. At night when my back hurts from carrying you (and your sister) around all day, I am thankful that you are still inside growing away. We have reached the point where if you were born you could survive on the outside (with a lot of intervention). I am so happy to have made it this far because to be honest there were times when I wasn't sure we would. No matter how uncomfortable I am, I am grateful for every day/week you spend inside. Not just to make sure you are healthy but to try and be READY for you! Or as ready as we can be. I feel like we NEED this time out here. Your daddy is so excited to be having a boy. I know he says he wouldn't have cared either way but I know the truth. After your sister was born (literally in the recovery room), daddy was holding Charlotte and said to her, "Did you just come from Heaven? Were you up there with baby brother?" And it turns out, she was. For the longest time Charlotte would tell me that she wanted a sister. "No brother mama. Just sister." But I think she is finally getting it that she is getting a brother because today she said, "No sister mama. Brother's right there!" And pointed to my swollen belly. I hope you know how much you were wanted little guy. Both you and your sister were so wanted. And you are both SO loved! Can't wait to meet you! But then again... I can. Time will come soon enough. Love you sweet boy
Dear Charlotte Alivia,
Oh my sweet baby girl! Where to even begin!? You are mommy's buddy. And it's seriously the best. I honestly think this is my favorite age and stage because YOU SLEEP and YOU NAP and YOU EAT like a champ. And you can talk and play and you make me laugh every single day. You are my biggest helper! Your "chore" is to feed Lucy and clean up your toys and you do a fabulous job at both. We are potty training right now and while it hasn't been your favorite thing in the world you are getting the hang of it and you always ask "Mama, hold your hand?" before we go. You sing "I am a Child of God" at least 10 times a day and sometimes you even play it on the piano and sing for us. It's the sweetest thing in my life and it makes me emotional every time you do it. Sometimes, when you give me hugs you say "BEST EVER!" and it really is the best thing ever. You are putting T's on the ends of some words for some reason and I really hate correcting you! "Snow-t" "Costco-t" "Bullseye-t" its pretty dang adorable. Also, lately whenever you "make something" you ask, "Mama, you like it?" And I always say "I LOVE IT!" and you say "you LOVE it!?" You love to go to the pet store and see "fishy, froggie, and chinchilla!" You still talk about Disneyland all the time and you can "read" all your favorite stories to mama. You are the most empathetic child I have ever met. We were coming home from the store the other day and we saw a homeless lady and you said, "Mama, she's sad. Why? She crying? Fix it mama." It just about broke my heart. You are just so in tune with the emotions of others and you hate seeing or hearing other people cry and you always want to "fix it". You also think that boo-boos can be fixed with kisses. I hope that one lasts a long time. You aren't so keen on having to share you blankets with your brother but you always give him a corner to hold (aka you put it on my belly) "Here you go brudder" and you also love giving "Brudder" kisses. You also suggested we name baby brother "Mickey Pluto". We will think about it. Every night for the past few weeks, when we put you to bed, you have wanted mama to stay and lay down with you after daddy turns off the light. Of course I do it. Because who knows how long you will let me? We talk about your day and all of the things you did. We snuggle for a little while and then I tell you that mama has to go to sleep and you give me the sweetest night night kisses there ever were. Usually you just want mommy to do this with you but daddy and I have been trading off because he needs some Charlotte time. I hope we can continue to do this once brother comes. I probably ask you about 30 times a day if you know how much you are loved and you always say "yeah". You love to go shopping (can I blame you!?) but you especially love Target and Hobby Lobby (or Lolly as you call it). You are my little best friend. And I really do worry about our bond when brother comes. Because you and me girl- it's just been us for so long! Every night after scriptures and prayers you grab my and daddy's shirts, pull us close, and say, "LOOK AT US!" Yeah babe. Look at us. Your daddy and I love you so so so much. And we think you are going to the the best big sister ever.