Tuesday, December 22, 2015

I watched Star Wars...

Let me just start by saying... I have NEVER seen Star Wars. Maybe I am only one in thousands but I just never really had the desire. I think I have seen bits and pieces of the newer ones- you know, just from them being on TV or whatever. But sci-fi just isn't my thing I guess. So... here comes the NEW Star Wars with all it's hype and jazz and fancy schmancy-ness. My husband kept "teasing" me that we would be going to McDonald's and to see Star Wars for our anniversary (which happened the be the day it came out). He even went so far as to tell me that he had OUTFITS for us to wear when we went and saw it. KILL. ME. NOW. Luckily he WAS joking and took me to eat at Elway's at The Ritz-Carlton and to listen to The Colorado Symphony play Handel's Messiah (way to completely knock it out of the park this year Captain Zufelt). But I digress... this post IS about Star Wars. I'm not completely mindless when it comes to Star Wars... I don't live under a rock. I know Darth Vader is bad, and Luke and Leia are brother and sister...  
I asked Devin if he really did want to see the new movie (of course the answer was a resounding YES) and that I would go with him to watch it. He said that if we were going to do that, then I NEEDED to watch ALL the other Star Wars movies from the beginning... I agreed. We decided to watch them after Charlotte (the 2 year old) goes to bed and during her naps if needed....

Within the first MINUTE of the film I paused it
"WHO the heck is 'The Empire' and WHY are they having a Civil War? The words are going too fast for me to comprehend what's happening- can we read them again? Maybe twice more so I understand?" 
My husband replied with, "Ssshhh, just watch the movie nothing has even happened yet!" 
Some other comments I made during the movie:
"Darth Vader's breathing is REALLY annoying me"
"Ben Kenobi sounds an awful lot like Obi Won Kenobi..." 
"What the heck kind of farming do they do?" 
"Seriously Luke? Not a SINGLE tear after losing your family?" 
"How can Princess Leah? Leia? Hear with those cinnamon rolls over her ears?" 
"All this gibberish talk is giving me a headache"
"There is NO WAY that anyone took that many shots and MISSED that many times!" 
'The way Luke looks at Leia is seriously creepy" 
"Harrison Ford man!" 
"So, no one really uses the force or believes in it yet Vader can strangle a guy?" 

We stopped and started this movie and grand total of... 7 times. I fell asleep watching this movie 7 times and had to restart it. Each time Devin would ask me if I remembered where we were. The first time I fell asleep it was within the first 9 minutes of the movie. One day Devin asked if I remembered what happened and I said, "Yeah, Luke's uncle and aunt died and he wanted to go with Obi Won to Alderaan (yes I used google to learn how to spell that) to learn the ways of the force and become a Jedi like his father". He gave me an incredulous stare to which I responded "And now I feel like Penny from 'Big Bang Theory' because I SHOULD NOT know that." I finally finished it yesterday. Devin laid down next to me as I (again) started from where I left off. It was the end flight scene. He said, "Ooooo this is where it gets good!" And I said, "Are you sure?" 
When it finished he said, "You did it! 5 more to go!"
This is going to take me forever. 
Overall I guess I just DON'T get the hype yet. Devin reminded me that this movie was made in the 70s and for a movie made in the 70s it's pretty fantastic. I guess he is right. I will watch the rest of the movies, slowly but surely... if only to watch a young Harrison Ford with sweet hair run across my screen. And if nothing else, they put me to sleep.

{Sorry to all the super fans whose life is Star Wars! I respect your love and devotion to it as you respect my indifference} 

Friday, December 18, 2015

7 years

Oh. My. Gosh. Devin and I have been married for 7 years today. 7 YEARS! Yesterday we talked about what we were doing 7 years ago. (I THINK I TELL THIS STORY EVERY SINGLE YEAR BUT THAT'S OK!) It was POURING rain as we drove down to San Diego. Devin, me and my best friend Crosby left early in the morning to drive down to LA to pick up another bridesmaid and so Devin could meet his family and drive the rest of the way down to San Diego with them. My parents and family left later in the day. Devin ate at In N Out TWICE that day (hahaha) and I was a GIANT stress ball because my freshly manicured nails had CHIPPED! (Mom was smart and brought hot pink nail polish just in case such a thing happened- which is why my "wedding nails" were hot pink and not a french manicure like I had wanted). My friends and I shared a hotel room and I COULD NOT SLEEP! But I tried. I was up super early in the morning showering and generally getting myself together- I had a hair and makeup appointment with a lady I had never met before. I remember calling Devin and asking what he was doing- he was leisurely having breakfast with his family... I had my dad go pick up our flowers (I believe I described in great detail what they should look like as well just in case they weren't what I wanted...) Mom and I headed off to my appointment and the girl FLAT OUT told me that I could not have my hair how I wanted (I wanted it down and wavy- like old Hollywood glamour). She convinced me to go with an updo.... But she curled my hair and had it looking exactly how I wanted it... until she started pinning it up into this weird beehive swirl of a mess (no, I do NOT have a photo. I made my mom delete that thing). She did my makeup while my hair was curled and pretty so I was thinking I was going to be looking good! And then... she did the beehive mess. As soon as she was done and turned me around I started freaking out. I only had 30 minutes to get to the temple and my hair looked horrendous. We went to pay and the stylist kept asking me if I was "OK". Luckily my mom answered and told her that I was just nervous. As soon as we got into the car I started crying and pulling out bobby pins. I was getting married in 2 hours and I had crazy hair and messed up makeup. I was FREAKING OUT to say the least. When we got to the temple Devin and my friends all met me as I got out of the car which was super embarrassing "YOU LOOK BEAUTIFUL..." they all said which just made me cry even more. Devin and I met with some people in the temple about how our wedding would go and as soon as they were done I squeaked out "Do I have time to fix my hair and makeup!?" Well thank goodness we got married on a Thursday because we did have time. My mom (bless her) had brought combs, brushes, curling irons, and her makeup arsenal. And she fixed my hair (as best she could) and touched up my makeup and got me dressed. I hadn't eaten anything all day (we got married around 2pm) so the nice temple ladies brought me some crackers and tic-tacs. And then it was time to go... Our sealing was beautiful and everything else went wonderfully the rest of the day. When we were getting our photos taken Devin asked me where I wanted to eat and for some reason I said "CPK!" (California Pizza Kitchen) I WAS STARVING! The day did not start out as planned by boy did it end up being the best day.

Devin, we have been through a lot these last 7 years. We have gone through 3 degrees (2 for me! 1 for you!), 4 moves, bought 2 houses, wrecked 2 cars (both in Colorado), started retirement plans, had countless adventures, and added our sweet babes to our family.  There is no one else in the world I would rather do this thing called life with. You seem to always know what I need, when I need it and you work so hard to provide and care for our little family. I love you just doesn't even seem to cut it anymore because the longer we are together the more and more we are one. I am so thankful for you and grateful that you married me. Happy Anniversary my love! 

Also, we will not be celebrating today as Devin has his work Christmas party. So we will be celebrating tomorrow instead! I have no idea WHAT we are doing. Devin has it planned and has kept it a secret. Although, he keeps telling me that we will be going to watch "Star Wars" and he has costumes for us to wear... Oh, dear. 

Monday, December 14, 2015

All about hair

It was one of my goals to learn how to do a TRUE hair blowout this year. Call me crazy (my husband does sometimes) but I felt like there was no way I could be 28 years old and NOT know how to correctly blow dry my hair. Now, that isn't to say that I blow dry my hair perfectly everyday- to be honest it's usually only on the weekend when I have a bit more time (read: Devin is playing with Charlotte) to get ready. Most of the time I just "rough dry" my hair BUT the important thing is... I know how to do it and I CAN do it. And I have become insanely picky about what I put on my hair. (Every product listed I use, MINUS the particular round brush. Everything else is tried and true! Remember to click on the photos to be taken to retailers).

-The number one thing I have learned about the "blowout"... Use good shampoo and conditioner! My absolute FAVORITE is DryBar "Happy Hour". I only use it a few times a week because it's a "cleansing" shampoo (meaning it removes impurities and buildup) so I usually use this on Wednesdays and Sundays and SOMETIMES ONLY on Sundays. The first time I used these products I noticed an IMMEDIATE difference in my hair and I have become a huge believer in them. This is what lead me to using the "Sake Bomb" collection as well. I definitely need hydration especially during the winter- so on the day's I am not using "Happy Hour" or a dry shampoo, I am using "Sake Bomb".

-The next thing I learned is about using the RIGHT products for the RIGHT purpose. I never style my hair without product in it. My favorite is DryBar's "Hot Toddy". It gives great hold without being too sticky (you know what I mean?). If I am curling my hair I do a double whammy with "Hot Toddy" and Bumble and Bumble's styling creme. Makes my curls STAY (which used to NEVER happen with my straight hair!). It is also important not to overdose on styling products! I literally use a dime sized amount for my entire head. I also really love Living Proof's style extender or Bumble and Bumble's styling lotion for days when I just want to leave my hair straight. (*Side note: only in the winter will I finish my hair with the hairdresser oil by Bumble and Bumble. Since it's so dry here I definitely need it!*)

-Learn to use a round brush. I was really intimidated by this when I first started to attempt to dry my hair like a grown up (haha). I used to always watch my mom use a round brush to style her hair growing up (which she STILL does) and I just thought it seemed like a lot of work and wasted effort! Well, sorry mom, I get you now. Watch tutorials if you have to but learn to use that bad boy. It will be your best friend! And so will styling clips! They help you section off your hair without leaving it horribly creased.

-After the blow-dry... I have figured out that I need to allot 20-30 minutes to curl my hair and only 5-10 to straighten it (even less time if I have done a proper blowout). So pending how much time I have left... that's what kind of hairstyle I go with. Usually I only curl my hair on Sundays and sometimes not even then! But Devin LOVES my hair curled so I try and do it at least once a week. Last year for my birthday, Devin bought me the Nume 5 in 1 (pictured below) and I absolutely LOVE IT! I bought a single titanium wand for travel as well because I loved the 5 in 1 so much! I love that it has different barrels to create a custom look. Then for Mother's Day he bought me the GHD flatiron (pictured below) because my CHI that he bought me when we first got married broke (I dropped it on the floor by accident and the plug broke!).

-Finishing. OK guys. I bought the Oribe Apres beach wave and shine spray on a total whim after I got my hair cut back in the summer and I splurged on the full size bottle (which I NEVER do if I don't know that I love something). I saw a tutorial on how to style a LOB and I decided I had to have it. This is probably my favorite hair product I own because not only does it smell fantastic but it gives my hair amazing body which I totally lack. I use it to give me some "oomph" when I curl my hair AND when I do topknots- it's my topknot secret weapon. I also love their dry texturizing spray! I'm going to go "off the record" here and say that I don't really have a hairspray that I love. Seriously, I don't. I feel like they ALL smell funny and they ALL are a bit crunchy. But the closest one I have COME to loving is the DryBar "Money Maker" hairspray. But if you want to use Herbal Essence as your hair spray- I will look the other way. Because to be honest, I don't love any hairspray (haha). So, if you have one you LOVE and I MUST HAVE IT please let me know.

-Making it last. Ok guys. I have the WORST time with dry shampoos. I have really dark hair (which is natural. I haven't colored my hair in 7 years) and NO dry shampoo completely soaks into my hair regardless if I do a cool blow dry (which I recommend doing anyway) and try and "fluff" it out. I really do love DryBar's detox spray but lately I have been using Bumble and Bumble's pret a powder. I will say it would be GREAT on blonde hair... but it's super messy to use so if you are in the market for a dry shampoo GO FOR THE AEROSOL! SO much less mess! So, brunette girls- if you have a fav dry shampoo that will soak in and not leave me looking like I'm 80- let me know! (I only wash my hair every other day so having dry shampoo is vital. I do like the ones I have used but I don't LOVE them and I need LOVE in my dry shampoo life.

Anyway those are just my tips and tricks! What are yours!? 

Wednesday, December 9, 2015

If I weren't pregnant

I told Devin that while it's so fun being pregnant at Christmas time... I am so tired of not fitting into anything! Like my down jackets... to keep me warm. AND this is the BEST time of year to get the best deals on my favorite clothing brands! I seriously go onto their sites and LUST over their adorable items right now. (I'm looking at YOU JCREW!) So, I have entitled this post "If I weren't pregnant" and essentially these are the things I would LOVE to have if I weren't pregnant. And yes, I realized I won't be pregnant for forever (although, it feels that way) but it still takes me awhile to lose all my baby weight and as Stacey and Clinton always say- BUY THINGS THAT FIT YOUR BODY NOW! So I will just have to wait next year and save my money... or spend it on makeup.. you know... whatever comes first ;-) but that doesn't mean YOU can't enjoy all the awesome sales right now! Have a look at some of my favs and don't forget, clink on the photo to be taken to the retailer for pricing. (DYING over the silver and tartan skirts!!!!!) 

Tuesday, December 8, 2015

The Tree

I feel like we always have a "tree story". Always. It's like our curse. We can never just have a normal experience when choosing a Christmas tree. Here is our 2015 Christmas tree story... 

{"Douglas" the morning after we finished decorating}

Want to know what makes a pregnant lady upset? Not having what she wants WHEN she wants it. Am I right or am I right? 
We always get and decorate a Christmas tree the Friday after Thanksgiving. ALWAYS. And because we are in the military, we refuse to buy a fake tree and haul it everywhere we go (we are only allowed a certain amount of weight to take with us when we move as it is), we always buy a real tree. We used to try and go chop our trees down ourselves and then that got way too pricey so we decided to try tree lots and those were just as expensive for the trees we wanted and they DIED so stinking quick! So, for the past few years we have been buying our tree at Costco. Because Costco is for lovers. And their trees are a good price (duh, it's Costco) and we have never had a problem with them dying too quickly. 
So, here comes Friday after Thanksgiving (Black Friday if you will) and Charlotte gets up from her nap and we get her all excited about going and getting our Christmas tree! Side note: Our child LOVES Costco and recognizes them every time we pass one so I think she was more excited about going to Costco than the tree. We take the truck and drive around and can't find the semi that usually has the trees in them. So, we go inside and sure enough there is a tree sitting there... with a sign... that says they won't be available until the 29th... which is a Sunday. 
Cue the pregnant lady mini-meltdown
But Devin convinced me that we could wait to get our tree until Monday. 
So, Monday rolls around. I talk to Charlotte ALL DAY about getting our tree and decorating it and all the lights that we will put on it! Devin decided to pick the tree up on his way home (because duh they are all tied up and you can't really pick "a good one" that way anyway) and he called me on his way home and told me that he got a "9 foot tree". WHAT!? We usually have a 7 or 8 foot tree... but 9!?!?! 
He gets home and leaves the tree in the truck while we eat dinner and then it dawns on me...
Um... maybe we should get the tree out of your snow filled truck bed... so it doesn't freeze...
So, Devin went outside to cut the bottom fresh and trim some branches and THEN he comes to get me to help him get the tree in the house. Me? Seriously? This thing is a MONSTER how am I going to get it up the front steps, and into the door with my big ol belly in the way? AND it's icy out! Regardless, we got it in the house and into the stand... and lo and behold

{"Douglas" before we cut the string off... just for it to stay in place...}

Not because Devin left it in the truck, but it just came that way!
Fresh frozen tree! 
So not ONLY is my living room covered in needles (which reminds me every year why I really DO want a fake tree! I swear I sweep those suckers up until May every year!) but also water from the de-thawing tree. 
Obviously we couldn't decorate a frozen tree (My mom texted me and asked, "How are you going to get that thing decorated if it's frozen!?") so we spent the evening watching the tree de-thaw and remembering WHY we love having a real tree. THE SMELL!!!! Charlotte kept yelling at the tree, "Come on tree! You can do it!" But it didn't help. We still went to bed with a frozen tree. We woke up the next morning to "Douglas" (which is what Charlotte named the tree?) being full and beautiful! It was absolute TORTURE waiting to decorate it until Devin got home.
But wait we did!

{All done. I love this photo of my sweet girl and her tree!}

We thought Charlotte would be ALL over decorating that tree
Nope. Kid just wanted to hoard the ornaments she liked in a basket that I usually keep cinnamon pinecones in???? What the heck kid?
BUT Douglas is done! He is decorated!!! And he looks fantastic
Devin calls our tree a "hodge podge" of nice ornaments and sentimental ones... I wouldn't have it any other way.
Now Charlotte wants the tree lights on 24/7 and every time she walks by it she says, "Wow! Pretty tree! It's beautiful!"
So much magic happening this time of year!

Wednesday, December 2, 2015

Diaper bags...

Ladies, I don't know about you, but I definitely did not realize how big of an investment my diaper bag was! I bought that sucker 3 years ago and I am STILL using it. The handles are a bit worn and coming apart now but it's been a good soldier these past few years and it's time to say goodbye. I have had THE HARDEST time deciding on a new diaper bag. For awhile I just thought that I would buy a few tote bags and use those (which I might still do....) but I have rounded up my favs. Help me pick one! Side note: Am I crazy? Maybe- but hear me out. I feel like I should be able to carry a bright pink bag even though we are having a baby boy. Because HE isn't carrying it- I AM! I'm just lugging all his stuff in it! Regardless I still think i will be going with a black bag just to be safe haha. 
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Tuesday, December 1, 2015

To my sweet children

Dear baby boy,
I am so ready to meet you. But then again, I can wait. At night when my back hurts from carrying you (and your sister) around all day, I am thankful that you are still inside growing away. We have reached the point where if you were born you could survive on the outside (with a lot of intervention). I am so happy to have made it this far because to be honest there were times when I wasn't sure we would. No matter how uncomfortable I am, I am grateful for every day/week you spend inside. Not just to make sure you are healthy but to try and be READY for you! Or as ready as we can be. I feel like we NEED this time out here. Your daddy is so excited to be having a boy. I know he says he wouldn't have cared either way but I know the truth. After your sister was born (literally in the recovery room), daddy was holding Charlotte and said to her, "Did you just come from Heaven? Were you up there with baby brother?" And it turns out, she was. For the longest time Charlotte would tell me that she wanted a sister. "No brother mama. Just sister." But I think she is finally getting it that she is getting a brother because today she said, "No sister mama. Brother's right there!" And pointed to my swollen belly. I hope you know how much you were wanted little guy. Both you and your sister were so wanted. And you are both SO loved! Can't wait to meet you! But then again... I can. Time will come soon enough. Love you sweet boy


Dear Charlotte Alivia,
Oh my sweet baby girl! Where to even begin!? You are mommy's buddy. And it's seriously the best. I honestly think this is my favorite age and stage because YOU SLEEP and YOU NAP and YOU EAT like a champ. And you can talk and play and you make me laugh every single day. You are my biggest helper! Your "chore" is to feed Lucy and clean up your toys and you do a fabulous job at both. We are potty training right now and while it hasn't been your favorite thing in the world you are getting the hang of it and you always ask "Mama, hold your hand?" before we go. You sing "I am a Child of God" at least 10 times a day and sometimes you even play it on the piano and sing for us. It's the sweetest thing in my life and it makes me emotional every time you do it. Sometimes, when you give me hugs you say "BEST EVER!" and it really is the best thing ever. You are putting T's on the ends of some words for some reason and I really hate correcting you! "Snow-t" "Costco-t" "Bullseye-t" its pretty dang adorable. Also, lately whenever you "make something" you ask, "Mama, you like it?" And I always say "I LOVE IT!" and you say "you LOVE it!?" You love to go to the pet store and see "fishy, froggie, and chinchilla!" You still talk about Disneyland all the time and you can "read" all your favorite stories to mama. You are the most empathetic child I have ever met. We were coming home from the store the other day and we saw a homeless lady and you said, "Mama, she's sad. Why? She crying? Fix it mama." It just about broke my heart. You are just so in tune with the emotions of others and you hate seeing or hearing other people cry and you always want to "fix it". You also think that boo-boos can be fixed with kisses. I hope that one lasts a long time. You aren't so keen on having to share you blankets with your brother but you always give him a corner to hold (aka you put it on my belly) "Here you go brudder" and you also love giving "Brudder" kisses. You also suggested we name baby brother "Mickey Pluto". We will think about it. Every night for the past few weeks, when we put you to bed, you have wanted mama to stay and lay down with you after daddy turns off the light. Of course I do it. Because who knows how long you will let me? We talk about your day and all of the things you did. We snuggle for a little while and then I tell you that mama has to go to sleep and you give me the sweetest night night kisses there ever were. Usually you just want mommy to do this with you but daddy and I have been trading off because he needs some Charlotte time. I hope we can continue to do this once brother comes. I probably ask you about 30 times a day if you know how much you are loved and you always say "yeah". You love to go shopping (can I blame you!?) but you especially love Target and Hobby Lobby (or Lolly as you call it). You are my little best friend. And I really do worry about our bond when brother comes. Because you and me girl- it's just been us for so long! Every night after scriptures and prayers you grab my and daddy's shirts, pull us close, and say, "LOOK AT US!" Yeah babe. Look at us. Your daddy and I love you so so so much. And we think you are going to the the best big sister ever.


Monday, November 30, 2015

Cold Weather Necessities

We have lived here for a little over 3 years and if there is one thing I have learned, it's how to stay warm in the cold! I remember "back in the day" when I moved to Idaho, my mom was so stressed out about be being warm she bought me these horrible clunky snow boots (which we returned- sorry mom) but I really never learned HOW to be stylish AND warm at the same time. I basically just wore a bomber jacket and converse to class every day in the -20 degree weather (AHAHAHAHAHA it's terrible but it's the truth!) Thank goodness my style has evolved from that. So, here are a few things to keep you warm, cozy, and stylish this winter.

#1. A COAT! But I'm not talking a ski jacket. No. A legit coat guys and gals. See the one down below with the toggles and hood? It's my fav. Even though I am pregnant I still wear it... just open (HAHA). Wool will be your very best friend. I seriously JUST got rid of the pea coat my mom bought for me for Christmas when I was 16. INVESTMENT PIECES I tell you. But if you don't like wool find a down or down alternative parka that STILL HAS SHAPE and won't make you look like a rectangle- unless you like looking like a rectangle.
#2. Boots. Ok, yeah if you are going to go out and treck in the snow, buy some legit snow boots, just don't wear them out to dinner. I bought a pair of brown leather boots 6 years ago and I STILL WEAR THEM TO THIS DAY. Want something that's kind of like a snow boot but way more fashionable? Hunter wellies! They are my favorite thing ever. Devin bought me some red ones 4 years ago and I never tire of them (I also have them in pink... black ones are on my list!). I wear these suckers in the snow all the time and I HAVE NEVER SLIPPED! Duck boots are also a fun option- yes, duck boots are on my Christmas list.
#3. Scarves. Any plain outfit can be dressed up with a scarf and so can any plain jacket! Patterned or plain, I don't leave the house without a scarf in the winter. 
#4. HATS! Ok. So, I get it. Hats mess up your hair. Stick a few dryer sheets in your purse and use them to help tame your hair when you take your hat off. Your body temp will thank you for wearing a hat. I am OBSESSING over J Crew's knit hats at the moment.
#5. Gloves. This is kind of a give in I feel like but I still see so many people out and about without gloves! People! PUT ON YOUR GLOVES! Your skin will thank you. I am LOVING anthro's line of fuzzy gloves at the moment! 

What are your winter must haves? Long johns? Cozy pajamas? Fuzzy slippers?
{Don't forget you can click on the image and be taken directly to the retailer to see prices and other options!}

Our last baby

Yes, this new baby (or "baby baby" as my husband likes to call him) will be our very last. The reasons are personal and private, but mostly medical based. We feel good about this being our last baby and we really feel like this baby completes our family nicely. Charlotte won't be an only child, and won't have to deal with her crazy parents all on her own! And Devin and I each have 2 hands, one for each of our children.
"Man on Man defense" as I had a friend describe it to me once.
There is something both sad and exhilarating in knowing that this is my last pregnancy. Let's be honest here, I don't do pregnancy well. I feel like crap, I look like crap, and my body just EXPANDS to no end. One day Devin said to me, "That's what you do when you are pregnant... you eat, and you sleep." And it's true, that's basically what I do! I cried to my doctor because of the weight I have already gained and she basically told me not to stress out about it (which was nice to hear from a doctor). I will say, it's been so NICE not working the majority of this pregnancy and being able to NAP every day! HALLELUJAH! Those 12 hour clinical days in the beginning were brutal though. Those sucked the life right out of me. It was like, I hit week 6 and baby said "I'M HERE TO STAY! HORRAY! LET'S MAKE YOU FEEL HORRIBLE!". But I really am trying to enjoy this second, and last pregnancy. I'm trying to enjoy the naps, and the EATING, and the extra snuggles I am stealing from Charlotte. Because I won't get this time again. Was it the smartest idea to get pregnant right at the end of nursing school? Meh, maybe I should have waited until AFTER clinicals but we knew the time was right. This pregnancy has definitely been trying. I have had a few things happen to my body that were concerning to me, but mostly I have just felt like crap. I thought week 12 would get here and my body would be like "OK! Let's be normal now!" But no. Oh no. Not to mention my SKIN is freaking out. My skin looks worse than it when I was a teenager. AND my body has just EXPLODED everywhere. I feel like I am much more active this pregnancy (HELLO!!!! I have been working out 4-5 times a week! And I didn't workout PERIOD with Charlotte!) but regardless I have expanded the space I take up... and it isn't cute. I'm not the cute little long torso girl with the basketball tummy. It's just not me and I'm trying to embrace it.
But I am trying SO HARD to enjoy this pregnancy! I am trying to enjoy every little kick and movement and sweet tiny outfit we find for this new babe. Because let's be honest... we have practically ZERO clothes for this kid. Devin is convinced he will spend the summer in only diapers. I reminded him that it snows in May. 

Friday, November 20, 2015

Stocking Stuffer Gift Guide

How we do Christmas: Every year since the year we got married Devin and I set a budget for Christmas (smart right?) It's usually around $150-200 with a $50 cushion for stocking stuffers (each). Charlotte does not have a budget yet but I'm sure she will ASAP. We really haven't bought her much in past years (THANKS GRANDMAS!) and she is really just happy to tear anything open at this point. Its been SUCH a nice thing for our little family to set a budget ESPECIALLY for each other. We also email each other a nice long list of things we want for Christmas and then the other person gets to pick from that list what we actually get. So it's still kind of a surprise. Usually each of us throws a few things in that we didn't ask for- like last year I made Devin an airplane blanket and he got me these really cool fair isle mittens that I LOVE. Anyway- I digress.... 
Our Christmas shopping is usually fairly easy the way we have it set up but there is one thing.... ONE THING that Devin always fails to put on his list...

I don't know about you, but I feel like stocking stuffers are the WORST thing to shop for, for men. I usually try and make his stocking stuffers real surprises by getting things not on his list (since he doesn't send me a stocking stuffer list anyway haha). So, here are some stocking stuffer ideas for men, women, and children. Because I can't be the only one who stresses about stocking stuffers right?
(Clink on the photos to be taken to product site!)

 So here's the thing. I try and either think about what my husband usually USES or LIKES for these things. I TRY and keep it around $50 for stocking stuffers although sometimes I do go a few bucks over. Some ideas! SHAVING STUFF: My husband LOVES his shaving stuff and is a big fan of the Jack Black line or The Art of Shaving (ladies, you can buy a gift set, open the box, and throw it into the stocking- boom! Done! Please be warned that the link for the Art of Shaving Kit takes you to the pricey one but I PROMISE there is an affordable version that is under budget! $30!) FACE STUFF: My husband LOVES these Boscia face scrubbers. He uses it every day and its really affordable (shhhhhh Devin is getting one in his stocking!) Also, last year I bought him these Peter Thomas Roth mini masks which we BOTH use (WIN WIN!) and love. SCARVES: Black Friday is the BEST time to buy these suckers because the nice ones get pricey OR just make one! Guys need to have warm necks too. SOCKS: Smart wool socks or dress socks always go down well in our house hold. TIE or CUFF LINKS: Every year Devin gets a new pair of cuff links from me. In past years I have bought him airplane ones, gear shift ones, transformer ones... the dude has an awesome collection of cufflinks now! Also, can't go wrong with a tie. Some other stuff I have done in the past: Candy! It sounds lame but it always goes down well. Usually I get him something he only gets at Christmas like Pirouettes or I special order HAPPY HIPPOS (because they are DELICIOUS  and it isn't something you can pick up at the local market around here). One year I bought him an OREO DIPPER and that was so fun to watch him open and use. I have also bought him new "coffee" mugs (for hot chocolate) and paper airplane books.

 I feel like women are so easy to do stocking stuffers for. Especially for women like me to love anything beauty/makeup. Men! (Are there men who read my blog? If your wife/girl friend likes Sephora by the register are a TON of mini products for great prices. Go there and stock up on stocking stuffers. OR right now is the BEST time to buy gift sets! Buy a gift set, open the box, and dump it in the stocking. Boom. Done. Some other ideas are: Bath bombs, bubble bath, a new book, makeup brushes/sponges, nail polish, hair products (I usually end up getting new shampoo and conditioner- fills up my stocking!), lotion, gloves/mittens, a new scrubby or loofa, favorite candy, lip gloss, SOCKS (I seriously get cozy socks every year!), $5 gift card to Starbucks... easy peasy. 

I feel like kids are the easiest ones to buy for in the family (am I right?). At least for Charlotte because I feel like she would be happy with anything! Last year I seriously just bought her the stuffed animals from Doc McStuffins for her stocking (and that was it) and she STILL loves them. This year, the girl does NOT need anymore stuffed animals and I really don't like the idea of getting her candy. I know that not ALL of these toys below would fit into her stocking (I got a little carried away and some are pretty big- how fun are these!?!?!?) But some fun options are: A top! How fun would a spinning top be to get in your stocking? Musical instruments. Yes, makes for a loud Christmas morning BUT one to remember for sure. A view finder! I LOVE THESE! Some other ideas are: bubble bath, books, cars, microphone or voice changer (seen in red below), play camera, and bubbles! 

Stockings are always the first thing we open on Christmas morning and it's so fun to get the day going by being surprised by what's inside! Let's nail these stocking stuffers this year friends! What do you usually put in your stockings? (I remember Devin telling me they always got an orange in the toe when they were little? I had never heard of that!) 

Monday, November 16, 2015

Oh.... boy....

(Warning: If you get weird about the word "penis" I encourage you to stop reading)

Let me just be clear... I pretty much KNEW we were having a boy since I got pregnant. I mean, the "Zufelt gene" statics have been Girl-Boy or Boy-Girl pretty consistently across the board. But you never know... maybe we could have been having another girl? But no. No no no. The day we got back from Disneyland my blood test confirmed what we already knew- BOY! Can I just say that I have never seen my husband more excited OR motivated about decorating... EVER? I swear the very next day he was talking about how we would be doing baby boy's room. 
We're having a freaking boy
I have to admit, even though I KNEW it, it's real and I'm freaking out a bit
You see, I don't do the "penis thing" well
Ok, that sounds bad but penis' are just weird
I come from a family of girls
I have 3 sisters
My mother was a single mom for forever
My sister had 2 girls as the first grandchildren
But when my sister got pregnant with her first son... I freaked out a little bit!
Our family motto had been "NO TAILS!" (From my niece) 
I mean, what would we DO with a boy?!
I still don't know... 
But I have now seen my fair share of penis' and it just doesn't phase me like it did the first time I saw one that wasn't my husband's (I know, TMI!).... 
It's just a body
Another TMI but the first time we did a catheter in clinicals was OF COURSE on a male... and guess who got to hold the penis steady? Me. Of course it would be me. And all of my classmates got a kick out of it. 
And the majority of catheters I have done have been on males. har-di-har-har
But I really had no experience changing boy diapers until recently (and I DO NOT feel skilled at it at all)
In fact, once I was babysitting a little boy and had my friend come help me to make sure I did it correctly 
Also, during our labor and delivery rotation all the babies were girls
BUT I did get a rotation in the NICU during my capstone and I took care of both BOYS and GIRLS so I feel a bit more skilled in the diaper area- but not much. 
When we found out we were having a boy the things I freaked out to Devin about where:

-Erections. I hear even littles get them!? What the heck? 
-Wet dreams (these 2 are funny because I know Devin freaked out about bra's and periods when we found out we were having a girl the first time) 
-Scouts (I refuse to be "Den mother" or a Webelos leader)
-Dating! (although I am afraid of this for both of my kids) Not liking anyone my son dates because let's be honest little girls can be dramatic and terrible
-Teaching him to do manly things that men should know! (Luckily my husband is a manly man and can teach him all those things...)
-Circumcision! I totally believe in it and we will totally do it but I cannot be there for that. That's all Devin. 
-Potty training a freaking BOY!? 

I have never ever seen myself as a "boy mom". I don't understand little boys and their love of dirt, and cars, and... what else do boys like? Super heroes? I get baby dolls and accessories and dress up! I still don't know how I'm going to do this- the whole "boy thing". But I guess I will just have to figure it out and not just be a "boy mom"... I'm going to be THIS BOY'S MOM! 

Sunday, November 15, 2015

Baby #2 is a...

 Well it's that time! Time to reveal whether we have a little girl or a little boy coming in March! Any last minutes guessed before you scroll down? Ok!

It's a boy! {Confirmed by both blood test and anatomy scan} 

Monday, October 26, 2015


Lately I have been feeling a lot of fear and anxiety about bringing another baby into our home. A lot of it has to do with me REMEMBERING how it was in the beginning with Charlotte. It was NOT easy for me. I felt so alone and isolated at the time and I just wanted SLEEP. But things are good now! So so good. I mean, Charlotte is 2. A typical 2 year old for the most part and that can be rough but by golly she SLEEPS and can TALK and she is generally more fun to do things with now (sorry Charlotte as a baby- you were fun too but in a different way). But now we are throwing a wrench in our routine and bringing another screaming new born into our lives and I am freaking out just a little bit. Maybe it has to do with the fact that I am the baby of the family? I mean, I basically grew up as an only child so my baby experience was limited to babysitting for a few hours. But now... NOW I know what we are getting ourselves into. And I'm kind of freaking out a bit.
I am sure EVERY parent has felt some sort of fear when expecting baby #2 (and so on)... 
No, I'm not scared of birth (after I had Charlotte, I told my mom and Devin that I could probably do that again)... But what I am scared of is...

#1. Charlotte not feeling loved enough. I am trying so hard to hold her, and kiss her, and snuggle her at every single opportunity. I tell her I love you a million+ times in a day (to which she responds "i yove you too mom"). I am smothering her in love so that maybe her "love glass" can be a bit overfilled for when the new baby comes. 

#2. NEW baby not feeling loved enough. I just don't see how my love can be multiplied and equal between my children at this point. I know everyone says that it will happen but I just can't see it at this point. Don't get me wrong I LOVE this babe growing inside of me but I already feel like it's kind of on the back burner while I focus my attention on Charlotte 100% while I can. Is that bad?

#3. How am I going to divide my attention between them both?  New baby is going to need SO MUCH attention but Charlotte still needs a lot of attention too. I can just see it happening now- them both waking up at the same time at night and BOTH needing me!

#4. SLEEP! For the love of all that is holy WHEN will I sleep!? I am an absolute MONSTER without sleep. Getting sleep helps me to be a better mother. But at least with only one kid you can TRY and sleep when the baby sleeps during the day. There is no way Charlotte will let that happen once new baby comes. 

#5. Me, becoming a zombie... and loosing myself. It's a hard thing to admit but I definitely feel like I lost myself a bit once Charlotte was born. I was swallowed up in breastfeeding, burping, changing diapers, cleaning the house... I was so consumed with my new role that I didn't remember who I was before or what I even liked to do. I suppose I still kind of feel that way because when Devin asked me what my dream was the other day I didn't have an answer. I haven't had TIME to think or dream of a dream. Between school and momming, and wifeing... there has been no time to fantasize about any other dream than making it past nursing school- now my dream is to pass boards. (Devin's dream is to be a ski lift operator and drive back to his cabin in his Ferrari...) Now that nursing school is over I have to remember what I liked and DID before nursing school and before Charlotte (Devin says my only hobby is shopping. I know he says it jokingly and lovingly but it kind of stings to feel like that's all you do). I think that's why I needed nursing school so much. I needed a long awaited dream to come true. With new baby coming, I need to think of new (realistic) dreams so I DON'T lose myself this time around. AND apparently to remember my old hobbies...

#6. Being cooped up in the house all the time. How am I EVER going to leave the house with 2 kids!? It seems like an impossible feat. I know people do it. And I have to remember how I felt leaving the house with just a  newborn...

#7. Finding time for myself and finding time for dates. Devin and I hardly go on dates without Charlotte. We go on "family" dates but really our only alone time is what Charlotte sleeps. We usually go out for our anniversary and around my birthday and maybe one or two other times during the year. A few "real" dates a year for the past 2 years. And to be honest any time I have been given "me" time I have felt guilty! I have felt guilty about being alone and not being with my family so I usually cut my time short and head home early.

Maybe I'm the only one who feels this way- but it's nice to write it down. It's therapeutic somehow about writing out your fears and being honest about how you feel...

Experienced mama's, any advice for welcoming baby #2 for our whole family? 

Saturday, October 3, 2015

Pregnancy Must Have's- Skin Care

Since this is my second go-round I feel like I know what I'm getting myself into (or at least I thought I did. This pregnancy has definitely been more difficult for me). I ordered the most expensive prenatal vitamins and started taking them months and months ago- ya know- just to have all that goodness in my system... but they made me sick. So, there's that. But I definitely have some tried and true favorites and some new favorites that have been helping my skin this go-around. Because to be honest, this is the absolute WORST my skin has ever been. Even worse than when I was a teenager. I'm going to Sephora today to hopefully find some type of hormone-induced-acne relief. Please note, there is only ONE truly "for pregnant ladies" item on here. The other 8 are for EVERYONE.

#1. L'Occitane shower gel. I know this has been on my favorites for awhile but I have switched to using this as my shower gel as well as my shave gel. It's so creamy and buttery and delicious. It makes my skin super soft and it smells divine.

#2. Boscia Konjac cleaning sponge. I bought one of these on a whim while I was visiting my parents in March and now both Devin and I can't live without it. I threw an old one away recently and Devin said, "Well, how am I supposed to wash my face?" So now it's a permanent resident in our shower. It's gentle exfoliation is perfect for everyday use and you can even use it on your eyes (if you want to of course).

#3. A good body scrub. Currently I am using Bloke's body scrub but Frank here is in my cart and ready for purchase (along with their body cream). No, I don't drink coffee but I am ALL for using it in a scrub. If you haven't already, go check out Frank Body's Instagram and find their before and afters for stretch marks. It's ridiculous. If a good scrub isn't in your arsenal, please go get one! It will change your skin.

#4. Mother's friend. The only "true" pregnancy item on this list. Some of you may remember this from my previous pregnancy favorites post. As soon as I found out I was pregnant, I stocked up on this baby. My mom used it through all 4 of her pregnancies- not a single stretch mark! I used it all through my pregnancy with Charlotte- not a single stretch mark! I use it once-twice a day depending on how my skin feels. Guys, I'm a believer in this stuff. Scrubbing + mother's friend= least likely to get stretch marks. (Please note, yes I do understand that stretch marks are widely hereditary).

#5. Peter Thomas Roth pumpkin enzyme mask. This is mostly on my list because it works so well and partly because it's October. Confession, I "stole" this from husband's medicine cabinet. I bought it for him as a stocking stuffer last Christmas and the man has yet to use it! So, I have put it to excellent use. I only use it once a week but man oh man it works wonders. If you don't want to buy the huge one for $$$ get the 3 mini's for $20 (at Sephora)! It's a great deal and you get to try 3 masks.

#6. Exfoliate by Kate Somerville. Ok, let me just start off by saying this stuff is pricey. But it's worth it. I use it 2-3 times per week (not on a day where I use the PTR mask. They smell very similar and combined would be too harsh and drying on the skin). It's so quick and simple! You only leave it on for 2 minutes and it works wonders. I have been using this stuff since before summer started and I am a huge fan.

#7. Korres wild rose overnight sleeping facial. This was also a purchase I made as soon as I found out I was pregnant. I used this all throughout my pregnancy with Charlotte and knew I needed it again for this one. I feel like this is definitely more for skin that is on the dry side (like mine is during pregnancy)- so if you are dry, this baby is for you.

#8. Lush cosmetics bath bombs. For Christmas last year I made all of my friends homemade bath bombs. I am a HUGE fan of relaxing in the tub (bonus, mine is a Jacuzzi tub) and Lush is always my go-to for bath bombs and bubble bars. You really can't go wrong with either.

#9. Kiehl's soy milk and honey whipped body butter. My tried and true. My ride or die. This will forever be my favorite lotion of all time until I can find something better (which has yet to happen in the last 3 years, and believe me I have tried my fair share).  Yes, it's insanely pricey for lotion but it LASTS FOREVER! The one I am currently using, I have had for 3 months and I am not finished with it yet. Plus, IT WORKS! I don't ever feel like I need to reapply and it smells divine.

Friday, September 18, 2015

Zufelt, Party of 4

In case anyone has been wondering why I have gained 10lbs, have been super sick, and generally look tired all the time....

Zufelt, party of 4
Coming soon
March 25, 2016

We are all so excited! 

Tuesday, September 15, 2015

On Nursing...

If you didn't see Miss Colorado (Kelly Johnson) do a monologue for her talent- go watch it. It made me cry. It's about being "just a nurse". Watch that before you read the rest of this. Today, on The View (which I DO NOT watch- but I did see this...) Miss Colorado was made fun of for appearing on stage in her scrubs with her stethoscope. They called it a "Doctor" stethoscope. I love this reply by Hilary Helkenn. She said,

{Last day of OB clinicals}

"For the last 20 years, I have put it on (her nurse uniform) and bravely walked into hospitals to care for the ones you love. See my stethoscope? It is a NURSE stethoscope too. I use it to listen to a child's lungs, so I can quickly get them to the appropriate level of care, reassuring both child and parent. I also use it to listen to our elderly loved ones, who sometimes have aging hearts that go into abnormal rhythms. It is the NURSE that usually sees the patient first, and it is often the NURSE that notifies the doctor of what is going on. I have helped to deliver babies, and I have held the hands of the elderly as they left this world. I love the physicians I work with, & I have the utmost respect for them, but it is often the NURSE you meet first and the NURSE that is the one responsible for your care. Your comments denigrated our most noble profession. You owe all of the nurses of this world an apology."

Can I get an AMEN. 
{Last day of Quarter 3 Simulation Lab}

There is a lot I could say about being a nurse. To be honest, I didn't really know the extent of what I was getting into when I started nursing school. Now, a few days away from graduation- I can tell you more.
I can tell you that the ONLY time I have EVER seen doctors on my rotations are during rounds or a minute or two before a baby was born. During my first code blue, it was the nurses who were doing CPR and pushing the life saving meds and running the code while the doctors stood by and watched. (This is not a doctor bashing post- I love doctors and I have a high respect for them!) Yes, I use my stethoscope ALL. THE. TIME. As nurses we have a ton of medical knowledge so please don't treat us like we are stupid just because we aren't doctors. A lot of the time doctors consult us on what we should do next for our patients as we KNOW our patients. We are the ones that will always be there. Always. We will be there if you just had surgery and you can't get up to use the bathroom. We will be there if you just had a baby and you aren't quite sure what to do. We will be there when you are getting chemo, or dialysis. We may even be there to hold your hand during the hardest and most trying days of your life. Nursing is a 24 hour a day job and we take care of everything from the brand new to the end of life. To have someone make fun of a profession that is so highly regarded is rude, uneducated, and downright unkind. If you don't know the scope of a nurses practice OR have never needed one- then thank goodness for that! But one day, you might need us. You might and you might wish that you had shown more respect for those of us who don't go pee during our 12 hour shift. Who STAY to make sure YOU are taken care of before we leave. Who don't get a lunch break because we were too busy sitting with you and holding your hand when you got the news that your tumor hasn't shrunk. The world needs nurses. And I am so proud that I will be one of them.

To my baby nursing students- Nursing school has been one of the hardest things I have done. I would be flat out lying to you if I said it was easy and that anyone can do it. So many tears have been shed. So. Many. Tears. Yes, I have wondered if I am doing the right thing. I have wondered if I will be as good as I need to be. But I MADE IT. The best advice I got was from my mom, she said, "It's ok to cry and have a pity party- but just don't live there." So, if you need to cry- that's ok. Just move on! And keep going! You can do it! 

Can I add this too? I guess I can because it's my blog:
To the women (and maybe even the men) who look down on me for going to school and allowing other people to watch my daughter for me- shame on you.
I feel so often women look at me and pity me or feel like they are above me because they stay at home with their babies and because motherhood is the highest calling there is. I know it's true. I know it is because there have been comments made in front of my face about how LUCKY other women are to be able to be at home and that it is SUCH an honorable thing to do with their time. I agree. It is. But I am no less of a mother than you are. Staying at home doesn't make you a better mother just like going to school/working doesn't make me a better one. There is more than one type of good mother. I repeat: THERE IS MORE THAN ONE TYPE OF GOOD MOTHER. To the women who feel sorry for me, don't. I chose to do this. And I believe I will be a better person because of it. So, stop trying to make me feel like less of a mother because I go out and take care of other people's family members while they are sick and/or dying. I refuse to believe that what I do, isn't noble. 

I cannot imagine a more Christlike profession. 

End. Of. Nursing. Rant. 

Wednesday, July 8, 2015

Building a Wardrobe: Shoes

Shoes are one of my absolute favorite things. Ever. Have you ever seen the movie, "In Her Shoes"? There is a scene in there when one of the characters says, "When I feel bad, I like to treat myself. Clothes never look any good. Food just makes me fatter. Shoes always fit." That. Is. Poetry.
Shoes always fit. 
I am a huge fan of killer shoes. HUGE! It is my bread and water. Absolutely essential. Here's the thing about shoes. They are probably the biggest investment in your wardrobe because THEY WILL LAST THE LONGEST. And BONUS they can be resoled, polished, and generally well kept. If there is one thing I can tell you about buying shoes, it's the same thing I have said for all the other posts- invest in quality. No, I am not saying to go spend $300 on a pair of Louboutin's (Yes, I know they are way more than that but I found some at a Barney's outfit for $300 and seriously considered buying them... but I didn't) because that is just not realistic for the majority of people in the world. My favorite place? DSW. And I WATCH the shoes I want and I wait for a coupon or for them to go on sale. (I am all about saving money and not spending full price on ANYTHING!)

So, here are the shoes you need in your arsenal.
-Black pumps: You will always need these. Always. I wear mine in every season with everything from jeans to skirts to dresses. 
-Nude pumps: If Kate Middleton has taught you anything, it's the value of a nude pump. That girl lives in hers and so do I. 
-Black flats: Again, something I wear in every single season. In the summer I usually swap these out for a flat black sandal. 
-Nude flats: Just like your nude heels these will be super versatile and a huge wardrobe asset. 
-*Red heels: If you have ever heard Kelly Pickler's song "Red High Heels" you will know exactly why you need these. You can omit these if red just isn't your thing but at least promise me you will try some on. I am telling you, a women in red heels can conquer anything!  
-Black or brown tall boots: FALL! I live in these during the fall and winter. If you don't already have a pair, start with a brown pair. I have had mine for.... 5 years and they still look awesome. 
-Casual sneakers: Because who doesn't love being comfortable? Converse are great and I am completely in love with New Balance's lately. You can dress them down with boyfriend jeans and a white top OR wear them with a cotton dress.

If you live in a colder climate for part of the year (like myself), I highly recommend investing in some Hunter Wellies. I wear them when it's snowing outside and icy. I have never slipped once! And BONUS you can purchase boot liners that are totally awesome and super warm!

(Remember to click on the photos to be taken to the retailers directly! Also, don't forget there could be more than one "page" of shoes below, be sure to check out all of my picks!)