Friday, February 28, 2014

Spoiled Rotten

Today is officially my birthday! Woohoo! While I am sad that I will not be spending my day at Disneyland (again) this month has been the best! I have been so spoiled by my mom and Devin- I guess they both feel I deserved it because I had a baby? I don't know but I will take it! I do have to go to school today (boo) but I will be celebrating with pizza and ice cream cake and a DATE Saturday night with my handsome man. 
I have already opened (and used) all of my birthday presents but just thought I would share them with you anyway ;-)

#1. A new iPad with a pink coach case

Everyone was telling Devin that I NEEDED to have this for nursing school. He could not WAIT until my birthday to give it to me. As soon as he got home he handed it to me and I yelled "IS IT AN IPAD IS IT AN IPAD!?" and Yes it was! 

#2. Clarisonic Plus
This photo is of the Mia but I have the plus and its so awesome! Devin and I have been wanting one of these for awhile and now we have it and we love it. I sort of wonder if Devin got it more for himself than for me... but it is pink so it's "mine". But honestly- if you have ever thought about buying one DO IT! You won't be sorry 

#3. MAC lipstick in Lady Danger
Mad props to the hubs on this one. I had posted something on Facebook about wanting this lipstick... and he showed up with it for me. Um... who picked the best husband? I sure did. (P.S. THIS COLOR IS SO IN FOR SPRING!)

#4. Littmann Classic II S.E. stethoscope 
I have been eyeing this baby ever since I decided to go to nursing school. They give you one as part of your "kit" but it's just a plain ol' black one. And if anyone knows me they know I have to have something flashy. My mom got this for me and had my name put on it because "That way no one will steal it! It's so cute!" And it's probably the cutest stethoscope I have ever seen. Way to go littmann. 

#5. Piano
I have been wanting a piano ever since we moved from California and left our old one with our renters. When Devin asked what I wanted for my birthday I told him that I wanted a piano. Up until Sunday he told me that he wasn't having any luck. Well, Monday here comes this big honking thing. I wanted to cry. There is something about having a "talent" and not being able to use it. A lot of my fondest memories are listening to my mom play the piano. I think this piano needs a name but I haven't come up with a good one yet. But I'm so glad to have it in my home! (P.S. Thanks guys that helped move this beast. It really is a beast. I appreciate it more than I can say really.) 

My grandmother used to tell my mom that she was going to spoil me rotten and that no man was ever going to spoil me as much. Grandma- I'm so sorry but you were wrong. I am spoiled beyond belief!... I came home the other day to (surprise!) Cirque Du Soleil tickets. 

And because it's my birthday and this is my blog- I am now going to share with you the music video my friend Jay made for me on my 21st birthday. I listen to it every year and it's a crack up. 

Thursday, February 27, 2014

9 months old!

We are about a week late but last Thursday this girl was officially 9 months old! WHAT!? That means in 3 months she will be a year old. I am having a hard time grasping that concept. 
This sweet babe is becoming sassy. She might look like Devin but she is definitely MY child. She does not like green beans (despite my numerous tries) and she LOVES bread (especially Panera's wheat baguettes). She is crawling ALL OVER the place, climbing the stairs, and pulling herself up to standing on EVERYTHING. She started "crawling" (she has been able to scoot and do "yoga" for a while) on February 9th and it has been go-go-go every since. Devin gave her, her first taste of ice cream the other day and she (of course) loved it and didn't want anything else after that. Sigh. So much for that all organic diet. Her favorite snack are the Gerber Organic yogurt melts and her favorite "toy" is still Lucy. I think she loves Lucy best. Charlotte, as much as I don't want you to grow up anymore it is so fun watching you learn new things! Mommy and daddy love you! XOXO 
P.S. We just ordered diapers from The Honest Company and I am so excited! I ordered their sample packet and it was awesome. I ordered their diaper and wipe month combo. If haven't heard of them, go check them out. 

Sunday, February 23, 2014

Dear Charlotte

Dear Charlotte,
Oh my sweet beautiful girl. How did I get so lucky as to have you? I must have done something right along the way. Watching you learn and grow is such a privilege. It's so fun seeing you discovered new things. I hope you always love learning. I just have to tell you something baby girl, that just because mommy is going back to school does not mean that I don't love you. I am having a really hard time with the guilt of the time commitment this will take. You will have to be cared for by someone other than me. And I am so afraid I am going to miss something. Because even though I have been with you every day since the day you were born, I still feel like I am missing you growing up. And I really don't want to feel like someone else is being your mother. But all of that aside, please know that this is the right thing for mommy to do. You won't remember me being gone, but I will remember. I hope this will set a good example for you- just like my mommy set for me. That you will have a desire to get all the education you can. I wish for you to be smart and educated and a hard worker. I hope you learn that from me and from daddy. We love you so much and want the best things for you. And even though mommy will be at school for a few months- I will ALWAYS be your mommy. No one can take that away. And I will always be here to help you along and guide you. Because that's what mommy's are for. And know that mommy and daddy love you no matter what.

Friday, February 14, 2014

Happy Valentine's Day!

Happy Valentine's Day my friends! Devin comes home today and I could care less about much else! (I really wish I didn't have class today- boo!) 
Anyway-here are some quick photos we snapped of C this morning.
They aren't the best because she is EVERYWHERE these days!
Happy Weekend!

Thursday, February 13, 2014

That's How You Know...

This post has been on my mind for a few weeks with Valentine's Day QUICKLY approaching (as in... it's tomorrow... so don't forget) 
But a few weeks ago I was doing dishes while Charlotte was eating a graham cracker happily in her bumbo and I decided to turn on Disney Radio. I sang my way through some Beauty and the Beast songs and a few catchy things from "High School Musical" shamelessly before the song, "That's How You Know" from Enchanted came on. I was singing my little heart out when it hit me... none of the things she was listing was how I KNEW my husband loves me. 
I looked over at Charlotte and I told her, "don't think these are the only ways that guys can show girls that they love them!" 
So, for all you kids out there who haven't found "the one" yet here is what real love looks like...
(I love this little gem I found on Dr Laura's page the other day)

-My husband always takes out the trash. Always. The only time I have ever done it is these past few weeks while he was gone. 
-My car is ALWAYS taken care of. Oil changes, tires, whatever it needs- Devin makes sure it's done. 
-He pays the bills. I don't work, I'm going to school and taking care of Charlotte which ends up being a 24/7 "job" but I don't worry about getting the bills paid. 
-He held my hand and never left my side (except when I sent him away to eat-and not in front of me) while I was in labor. He sat on the edge of a bathtub for over an hour and let me squeeze the liven' daylights out of his hand. He went and got ice cold water and a washcloth to wipe my brow in-between pushes. When I look at photos of Charlotte's birth I can SEE that love he has for me. It still makes me tear up. 
-He lets me sleep. There have been a few KEY times where I remember him taking Charlotte and taking care of her while I slept. One specific time was right after we brought her home and I was so exhausted I didn't even get under the covers. He let me and my mom sleep until 1am and it was a beautiful thing. Another time he came home after a long day of work and let me shower and go right to bed until midnight. That's real love right there. 
-HE ALWAYS let's me eat his dinner if he orders something better than me at a restaurant. 
-He also let's me finish his Oreos.
-And he always lets me have the last bite of any dessert we are sharing. 
-If he is home, he changes the diapers. 
-He lets me have ME time. 

Love isn't the things he can BUY for you. It isn't even the flowers or chocolates or little love notes... it's in the everyday. In marriage you HAVE to find the extraordinary in the ordinary. Learn to recognize the small acts of love. Because those little things really are the big things. I feel like too often people forget that. I know there are a lot of reasons why the divorce rate is so high (oh pornography how I loath you and your destructiveness to the family unit... and LUST... ugh.) but I feel like a lot of people once the "magic" is gone they think they aren't in love anymore so they go find someone else to give them that "special feeling." Ok people... I have something to say that might shock you but that feeling only goes away when you STOP TRYING! In the beginning you both are trying so hard- once you are in a relationship DON'T STOP TRYING! All too often I have seen people slump into the "married funk." 
You know what I'm talking about right?
Sweats, weight gain, no makeup, hair not done, no longer going to the gym, cut my hair because the kids came along (and please don't use the excuse that you don't have money or time for yourself. Target sells some super cute and affordable clothes and shoes! And drugstore makeup is just fine... and if you claim you don't have time for makeup ladies I would direct you to my "5 minute face" tutorial)
Don't forget yourself and don't forget your spouse when the kids come along- that seems to be a wedge in the relationship sometimes. I know I struggled with it after C was born. My mom took me to Target and told me that I needed stuff that fit me NOW because I could not let my husband come home to a wife who had stayed in PJ's all day. I could probably ramble on and on about this all day... but here are my real points to this post...

#1. Hollywood's version of love isn't real love. Real love is when they let you have the last piece of their favorite cheesecake (or something like it...) 
#2. Don't forget to love yourself 
#3. Don't ever stop trying to better your relationship

Happy (almost) Valentine's Day! 

Sunday, February 9, 2014

The Product Battle

I have a problem. A product problem. I LOVE trying new products. This is probably why Sephora is one of my happy places. SAMPLES! Before the glory of Sephora, I was introduced to the concept of "try before you buy" from the MAC counter. I had been using Bare Minerals foundation for YEARS (3 to be exact- and I still love it and have it always in my makeup bag by the way) and I wanted to have a liquid foundation in my arsenal. I had been frequenting the MAC counter for eye shadows and I got to talking to the girl at the counter and she offered to give me a sample of some foundation. And it was like a lightbulb went off in my mind. DUH! WHY had I never done this before? Or even asked to try foundation before I tried it? I had always gone in, matched my shade, and paid for it... and a lot of times not loving what I got (que Makeup Forever's HD foundation... don't get me wrong it was OK I just was not in love with it. Something about the consistency was just off for me... but I used it until it was gone. Can't waste money!) So a few weeks ago when I noticed that my MAC foundation was running low I decided that maybe I should try and branch out. At the top of my list were Laura Mercier and Bobbi Brown. A few years back in my search for the best concealer (ugh... benefit erase paste) I tried a Laura Mercier one (twice) and it was OK... not bad, not great. I have RIDICULOUS under eye circles and I always have even when I was a kid. I had heard great things about their tinted moisturizer but I felt like I needed more coverage. So into Sephora I went with C strapped on my chest in her Ergo and I asked the sales girl for a sample of the Laura Mercier foundation (oil free please). This experience was just all kinds of wrong. I told her that I wanted a sample because my skin is really sensitive and I didn't want to purchase without trying it first to make sure it didn't break me out. So she color matched MY CURRENT foundation (MISTAKE!!!!) and I told her that I thought it was way too dark and she said, "You are darker than you think." I said OK and she goes and grabs me the box to purchase it and I explained again, "No, I am not ready to purchase today I want to try it first please." She huffed and said, "well just so you know we only have one left in your shade and I don't know when we will be getting more back in." OK thanks. Sheesh. I was peeved but decided to head to Nordstrom to the Bobbi Brown counter anyway. A week before I had tried the "luminous" foundation and found that it was too much like a BB cream for my liking. I explained this to the girl at the counter and she asked if I wanted to try their long wearing foundation.  "YES PLEASE!" She explained that I might be better off wearing MAC if I wanted the matte look with fuller coverage as Bobbi products are meant to look like you aren't wearing anything. "That's more what I am looking for. Just my skin but better! And more coverage without it feeling too heavy." She color matched me THE CORRECT WAY, gave me a generous sample AND her card with my color on it and said, "If this doesn't work, come back and we will try the moisturizing foundation!" Much better experience there for sure. That aside, I went home with my two samples and had high hopes for Laura Mercier and not Bobbi Brown (I thought it wasn't going to be enough coverage for me). The next day I decided to try Laura Mercier first. I prepped and primed my skin, got the first little bit on and my initial thoughts were, "This stuff stinks and it's sticky!" but I kept going until my entire face was covered. My shade was completely wrong, and I looked (and felt) like I had a mask on. This might sound weird but my face FELT funny after putting it on. As soon as it was on I wanted it OFF. I washed my face and threw the rest of the sample in the trash. I prepped and primed for the Bobbi Brown long wear. As soon as I opened the sample jar I was already happier. The smell! The consistency! I sure hope this covers nicely. And it did. I tell you I heard the makeup angels singing. I called my mom right away and told her that her next foundation should be Bobbi Brown. I have found the foundation that was meant for me! Now, maybe my experience with Laura Mercier would have been better had I tried the tinted moisturizer and gotten the correct shade. I still might get the little tube they have at Sephora (it's at the checkout and I think it's like $15 or something)... but as for me... Me and Bobbi are going to be so happy together I just know it! Smell, consistency, coverage (without feeling sticky or like I'm wearing a mask!) HURRAY! I'm sold. Now I am lusting after Urban Decay's Naked 3 pallet, Benefit Hoola bronzer and the Nars Ita brush... good thing my birthday is in a few weeks! 

Monday, February 3, 2014

On being a married single parent

I feel bad for neglecting this little space of mine. But the truth is I have just been too stinkin' busy. School, baby, church, and parenting by myself these last two weeks have really taken a toll on me. I definitely had to find my groove with school again. My first few days I kept thinking, "WHY AM I DOING THIS TO MYSELF" but now we have settled into the routine. Week 5. WEEK 5! Almost halfway through my first quarter of nursing school. When Devin told me he was potentially going to be gone for a month a little while back, I freaked out (inside... I didn't let him know I was freaking out). My mom wasn't able to come out until the last little bit... and I freaked out more. I HAD SCHOOL! I have to STUDY! And my baby is BUSY and she is in the "separation anxiety" stage. Not to mention she has been sick which makes her EXTRA clingy. And no sleep. No good naps. No good night time rest. I called my mom bawling one night that I just could not do it! I needed parenting relief! SERIOUS parenting relief. I had an EXAM the next day. HOW am I going to concentrate when I can't even hold my head up? HOW!? 
Yeah, people tell you they want to help you and I'm sure they mean it but they don't mean it at 3 am when you're kid isn't sleeping... which is REALLY when you need the help. 
And poor Devin, I know he feel guilty about leaving us here. But what can he do? It's his job. It's what we both signed up for. 
And surprisingly I am surviving.
It's been hard. Probably as hard as her first few weeks of life were, because I have been weathering the storm on my own. 
My mom gets here Wednesday and it cannot come soon enough. 
I definitely have a new appreciation for single parents. 
Especially my mom. 
My mom was a single parent for 11 years of my life.
11 years! 
I never really understood how hard that must have been for her until now. She had no family to help her, I was always in daycare and wherever she went- I went too. She worked, and provided, and took care of me and my needs all on her own. What a daunting task. 
My mom reminded me of a time (which I do not remember) when she was sick in bed and I was just appalled that she would not get out of bed and make me something to eat! 
Yikes, what a brat I was. 
And if anyone knows my mom you know she must have been REALLY sick. 
My mom is always GO GO GO GO. It takes a lot to knock her down. 
But I think that just shows that my mom never let on how hard being a single parent was.
She never let me do without, even if that meant that she had to work extra hard so I could go to ballet classes and take piano lessons. 
Mom, you rock. And thanks for jumping on a plane to come help me. 
And for answering your phone at 1am and letting me cry. 
I don't care how old I get, I will always need you. 
And Devin, you are the best husband and daddy and we miss you more than you know.
Thanks for never letting me feel like I have to do it all OR do it all on my own. 
I know how lucky I am to have you. 
Charlotte, you are so stinkin' cute. Thanks for being my buddy. We love you.