Tuesday, December 31, 2013

The New Year

Last year at this time (oh how I love to reminisce) I wrote down (in my phone) my "New Year's" GOALS (I like that word so so so much better).
New Year's Eve was the first night we spent in our "new" home. We slept in our guest room in the basement (our master bedroom was in no condition to be slept in) and Devin had to work a swing shift. I watched movies on our laptop and fell asleep somewhere around 10 waiting for Devin to get home. I remember getting my phone out and typing in things I wanted to happen in 2013.
 These are the ones I can remember since I got a new phone.
They went something like this...
-Have a healthy pregnancy
-Have our baby in the most natural way possible
-Put together the cutest nursery
-Lose the baby weight
-Visit California for a week 
Done and done. I am happy to say that I accomplished these things. I officially weigh what I did at my very first doctor appointment after I found out I was pregnant. My pregnancy was textbook and I did have our baby in the most natural way possible until I couldn't take it anymore. And I am in love with C's nursery. AND C and I went home for a week in August. 
I am happy that I reached my goals this year!
Last year on New Years Eve I remember thinking, "Holy Hannah I am going to become a mother in 2013!" And I freaked out a little bit. 2013 was not the easiest year I have ever had but it was the year that changed my life for forever. It was the year we moved into our (now) house, the year our darling Charlotte came to us, and the year I decided to go to nursing school. 2013 brought with it a lot of change and I wouldn't CHANGE any of that change for anything in the world. 
I am starting school next week and I am kind of freaking out about it. I have had a lot of discussions with friends, my mom and Devin about "how am I going to do it all?" The best advice I keep getting is to take it one day at a time. And that is what I am going to do. So, 2014... I am coming for you. 

Monday, December 30, 2013

Charlotte's First Christmas

Happy Monday friends! I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas! Not going to lie, it's been so nice to hang out with my little family and relax these past few days. AND I cannot believe 2014  will be here so soon. 

Just some rambling's about Christmas. Nothing too exciting. Mostly just documenting for my own good ;-) 
The day before Christmas Eve Devin told me that yes he would be going into work on Christmas Eve but that he would be home early. I was a little disappointed since he had to work last year on Christmas Eve and Christmas Day but at least this year he had Christmas Day off. Christmas Eve we woke up and he announced that he was calling in and not going to work. Yipeee!!! I got my workout in (HAHA thank goodness!) and I made our favorite pancakes for breakfast (see my "recipes" tab for that one). After breakfast I started on our desserts. I made the best chocolate cake- seriously it's the best, Devin said "I can't believe I always forget how good this is!"... I usually only make it on Christmas but this year he talked me into making one for  NYE party we are going to. I also made an apple pie cheesecake. No, I won't be sharing these recipes. I'm sorry! Some recipes must remain a secret. We visited friends and watched Christmas movies and went and looked at Christmas lights! (Side story: I was going to make white chili to have for dinner but we ate a late lunch of Italian beef sandwiches and we just were not hungry! We ended up eating popcorn and chocolate cake for dinner. Classy.) We came home, opened our jammies, read Luke 2 and "The Night Before Christmas" and had C in bed by 8:30. Devin and I stayed up and put together her Santa toys! That was so fun. Charlotte woke up at about 7 and I made Devin wait to bring her downstairs (I forgot to fill the stockings haha!) It was so fun opening presents with her. She was very spoiled and ended up getting pretty overwhelmed so halfway through opening presents I put her down for a nap and she went back to bed for another 3 hours (she is teething, poor baby had a rough night Christmas night). Devin and I  finished opening presents, I made cinnamon rolls (and I did homework) and daddy put together the rest of C's toys. We really just lounged around and watched Christmas movies (and went on walks) until dinner time rolled around. We had the missionaries from our church over. Also, don't try and make the pioneer women's brussel sprouts... they turned out so gross. I was totally embarrassed. I am never making brussel sprouts again. But the desserts were awesome ;-) 
Now our decorations are put away for another year (although I scored a felt tree for C to decorate next year and an elf on the shelf for 1/2 price! And some Hanna Anderson Christmas jammies for next year!), our tree has been recycled and our home is back to normal. I am really sad to see the holiday's go but I know they will be back before I know it! 

Tuesday, December 24, 2013

Merry Christmas

^^^her sweater is a teanse too big, she will grow into it^^^

^^^Welcome to our back deck, complete with extension chord and dish ;)^^^

^^^This was before we realized that daddy put her shoes on the wrong feet...^^^

^^^ "You talkin' to me?" ^^^

^^^ Her "old grandma without her dentures" face...^^^

^^^All I have to say about this one is... cheeks^^^

(Yes, I had 5 inches cut off of my hair and it feels AWESOME! My skirt is from Shabby Apple, Sweater is from J Crew, Pearls were a gift from the hubs (last year for Christmas)! I am wearing a TINY bit of MAC rebel lipstick with MAC push glass in "full for you" over top and Jessica Simpson shoes that you can't see. Charlotte is wearing a Carter's dress, cardigan and tights, her shoes are from Old Navy and her headbands and bows are from Etsy... in case anyone wants to know ;-) 

I had always gone to church on Christmas Eve before Devin and I got married. And not "my" church. Usually it was the Moravian church or the Catholic church and to be honest I completely miss it. I miss getting dressed up and going and hearing about Christ and hearing lovely music and coming home, eating dinner, opening PJ's, putting them on, and touring Christmas lights before coming home and having hot cocoa and singing carols. I just put me in the Christmas spirit. I told Devin that this year I wanted to find a church that had a nice Christmas Eve program and go. I wanted to go last year but I was pregnant and I felt awful those first few months. I REALLY wanted to find a Moravian church around here to go to but most of them are back east. Fear not, I am not changing religions nor doubting my religion in the least. I just really love Christmas Eve services. It is a great way to get into the true Christmas spirit. This year it's just gong to be me and Devin and Charlotte. Last year Devin had to work until 3 on Christmas so I was by myself moving stuff into our new house most of the day. It didn't even really feel like Christmas. This year Devin has Christmas Eve and Christmas Day off and I am beyond excited... AND it's C's first Christmas. Tonight we are going to have white chili with fresh bread and an awesome chocolate cake. We will open our PJ's just like we do every year and we will go tour the Christmas lights. Devin and I have decided to play Santa tonight even though Charlotte won't remember... but we will. Tomorrow morning C will wake us up at about 7 and mommy will throw the cinnamon rolls in the oven while Devin and C work on their stockings. I honestly cannot wait. May you each have a merry and bright Christmas. I can't wait to see/read/hear about all the wonderful things you did.
Merry Christmas and thank you for reading

Monday, December 23, 2013

Christmas Eve's Eve

When I was younger, the 23rd of December was always Christmas Eve's Eve. It was an exciting day! The day before all the festivities began. It deserved it's own Eve. This year I will spend it cleaning house and braving the madness of the grocery store for a few last minute items. Christmas time is always a time of nostalgia for me. It's a time to remember Christmas' past and enjoy the present. I am always reminded of the Christmases I spent at my grandmother's house. We would go to the local Moravian church (my ancestors were Moravian) and eat hot buns and light bees wax candles and sing "morning star". The smell of bees wax always reminds me of Christmas. Then we would go back to Grandma's and open our pajamas and I would go to bed early and wake up early and run into my grandmother's living room and on her floral couch would be the most beautiful gifts. I specifically remember getting 3 tiny baby dolls in my stocking one year along with an entire set of barbie dolls that were going to Scotland (I assume as they all had scotty dogs on their shirt and they were wearing plaid and had suitcases) and a "little miss executive" set complete with briefcase. I got a Barbie doll every single year. One year I got a gorgeous Barbie doll house. That was one of my favorite presents. After my grandmother passed, we had a few Christmases just my mom and a sister or two. One year I got a basketball hoop and roller blades! That was an awesome Christmas. I spent the whole day outside. Another year I got an easy bake oven and spent the entire day in the kitchen and made EVERYTHING the easy bake came with (I guess we should have realized my baking obsession then). Later came the Christmases where all I wanted were clothes (although I did get a music stand and metronome one year too). As I got older I started choosing just one gift because I felt like I was too old for the whole "Christmas thing". Those were the years I got my black pea coat (that I still have!), a dooney and burke purse, and a digital camera. Once I got into college it was more about BEING home than anything for Christmas. I remember watching my mom cry as she opened a photo of my sister's and their families. At the time I didn't understand why a photo would make her so happy. I get it now mom. And I also get why you say you don't want anything for Christmas. The past few years we have been blessed to spend Christmas with our families with the exception of last year. And I would give ANYTHING to be home in California this Christmas. With all the hoopla and craziness that comes with the commercial side of Christmas (I won't pretend that we didn't do black friday shopping because we did) all I want this Christmas is to be with my mom and my sisters. It didn't really hit me that that's what I wanted until Saturday night. I had put Charlotte down for bed about an hour before and Devin had just turned off the lights for us to go to sleep. I started feeling extremely home sick and sad. I started to cry and I jumped out of bed and told Devin that I just HAD to call my mom RIGHT NOW. And that's what I did. I told her about Charlotte meeting Santa and how utterly ridiculous the mall was and how much I loved my new hair cut... and how much I missed her and all of our Christmas traditions that we used to do together. It just isn't in the cards this year for us to be with my family. But as the song says, "I'll be home for Christmas, if only in my dreams." So California... I will see you in my dreams. 
And of all the presents I have ever received, the gift of my family is the greatest one. 
Especially the family I am creating with my husband. 

Friday, December 20, 2013

7 months old!

Sometimes I really wish there was such a thing as "Never Never Land" because I really don't want my sweet babe to grow up any more. I already feel like this is going way too fast for my liking. (Although I do wish teething wasn't so rough on my girl. I would like to pass through teething quickly). Lately I have been thinking about what I was doing a year ago at this time. And a year ago my sweet girl was growing inside of me and it's so amazing that here she is! Also, a year ago I started wearing maternity pants. I can't say I miss those. But already I miss the teeny tiny Charlotte. Just yesterday I was at the store and I picked up a premie onesie and I about burst into tears. Not that long ago my sweet girl FIT into premie stuff! And now she is just so big. 90th percentile for HEIGHT!?She is just so much more active these days! She is SO CLOSE to crawling! I am thrilled for her but scared at the same time. A MOBILE BABY!!! She has exactly 1 tooth and is working on her second. Her bottom middle ones are the ones coming in (the right one was first). She LOVES cherry tomatoes. We gave her one at dinner to munch on the other night and she went to town. She also likes gnawing on carrots and teething biscuits. She is not a huge fan of "puffs" yet but she will get there. She loves grabbing ANYTHING that is within reach. I am so excited for her first Christmas. I know she won't remember it but I sure will. Silent night totally chokes me up these days, especially when it says, "Mother and child". It's crazy that last year I was dreaming of what it would be like to be a mother and now I am one with my own sweet babe. Motherhood has been the most challenging thing I have ever done and I make mistakes every single day. But this little girl is the light of our lives. 

Charlotte we love you so much! Keep growing, even though it makes mommy sad. 

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

5 years

Today Devin and I have been married 5 years and I honestly cannot believe it. Where in the world has that time gone? I don't feel old enough to have been married for 5 years. (I also don't feel old enough to have a child either). I know that Devin and I were just babies when we got married. I especially know that NOW that I am the age HE was when we got married. I don't even think I realized at the time how huge of a step getting married was. That the person you are choosing will help shape and create the rest of your life. I was young and in love and I just wanted to be with Devin. Now, I am older and wiser and I wish I could go back and high five my child bride self for picking the man that I did. I would be lying if I told you that these last 5 years have been cake. They most definitely have not. This last year has been especially trying for us with Devin's dad passing and adding Charlotte to our family. Yes, adding a baby is both joyful and stressful. We argue and get annoyed at each other just like any other couple. Dishes get left in the sink sometimes and occasionally the laundry piles up. Things break, and now that I'm not working we worry about money more than we have ever had to. Oh, but there is so much more joy too. And love. Especially now that Charlotte is here. I'm amazed at how much fun we have just watching C eat or blow bubbles. I like to think that I know a thing or two about marriage but honestly I feel like I will always be figuring this out. Our marriage is just old enough to be in kindergarten. It's learning it's colors and numbers. When I was in kindergarten I had awesome Little Mermaid pajamas. So that's our married right now. We are in the Little Mermaid pajama phase. A few weeks ago Devin and I were having some cuddles and pillow talk after C went to bed and we were discussing our favorite memories. There are a lot of them. We have been so blessed with this little life of ours. Life might not be perfect, but I am so glad I found the one I want to share mine with.
Happy Anniversary love.
You make our family look good.

P.S. Remember last year how we announced that we were pregnant? ;-) My oh my how things change in a year!!!

Monday, December 16, 2013

The Victory of the Mint Cords

Saturday Devin went skiing all day and I was all set up to bake for an upcoming wedding (3 batches of pink oreo truffles, 3 batches of toffee bars, and 2 large chocolate pb cookie batches.) I woke up early with Devin and got to work at about 7 am. When C went down for her nap I took the opportunity to shower and put some makeup on. As I was getting dress and reaching for my yoga pants because, I'm basically stuck in the house all day, I reached for my mint skinny corduroy pants instead. These pants have been my goal since having Charlotte and I try them on once a month just to see. As I put both legs and attempted to get them up my now big birthing hips I wondered why I kept doing this to myself. Why not forego my "skinny" clothes and just accept that I've had a baby and my body isn't the same. And then... they zipped up. Albeit a bit "painted on" they fit. And I wore those suckers ALL DAY LONG. When Devin got home I said, "hey guess what these are!?" And he said, "Um, pants from J Crew?" Ok... yeah... but it was a big victory for me. It's never been easy for me to lose weight. Not ever. I've always had a bigger more "muscular" build (HAVE YOU SEEN MY ARMS AND CALVES!?) and my hips can no longer lie... they say "girl you have had a baby" and that's OK. Everyone's body is different and some girls are able to bounce right back no problem (like my mother who assured me that I would as well... the woman had six pack abs after 4 kids). But I'm not that girl. I have never been that girl. I'm finally down to the weight I was when I went in for my first OB appointment with Charlotte... but my body IS different now regardless of what I weigh. I felt ambitious and tried on ALL of my pre-pregnancy jeans and yes, I still have some work to do to get those comfortably over my big bootay. (I have some amazing jeans I forgot about! I can't WAIT to wear them!) But I'm getting there! I am getting rid of some of my clothes that are too big (or that I no longer wear and haven't worn and don't plan on wearing), I don't need that kind of negativity in my closet. I might put them away IF (and that's a big IF) we have another baby very very very far in the future from now. Accepting your body and loving your body is hard. I think it's harder than a lot of people want to admit. In this new year coming up I am going to set realistic expectations for myself (like, I want to fit comfortably into my old Hudson jeans by my birthday) but I'm also going to show my body more love and stop with the negativity as best I can. No matter what the number in your jeans says, love yourself. Slow progress is better than no progress at all. Especially for me. 

Friday, December 13, 2013

Merry Christmas

This weekend was FREEZING! The coldest I think I have been since I lived in Idaho. But we still decided we wanted to do family pictures. And THANKFULLY our photographer is amazing and down for anything. And luckily she is a really great friend too. She came over and we were originally going to go to the local park but I was already over it and said, "let's just do it right outside our front door" and that's what we did. Mostly because it was nap time and C was not having any of it (hence the ever present pinkie). And I absolutely love them. Thanks Cherie! You never ever cease to amaze me with what you can do in 10 minutes. 
If you are local you definitely need to check Cherie out. She has taken all of our photos since we have moved and I have never been disappointed! 

Merry Christmas from us to you!